10,000 Sounds

I believe dreams can be a gift from God – comfort and love wrapped in a nighttime vision. About three months after Jordan’s death, I had a dream that was so vivid I can still see it clearly in my mind’s eye. In my dream I remember feeling very worried, concerned that I hadn’t heard from Jordan in a while. But then it dawned on me that I could call him. Using my cellphone, I quickly punched in that string of numbers I still have committed to memory. What a relief when Jordan answered the phone... his familiar voice was such a sweet sound. Although it was a telephone call, I could see him distinctly. He was sitting at a long, plain table and was tinkering with a wooden box. The box appeared to be made of old, weathered wood with an old-fashioned bicycle bell attached to one side. I could see him as he concentrated on making “adjustments” to his box. We weren’t talking... it was as if I was suspended in time while watching over my son. I suddenly heard an unusual bird chirp and Jordan exclaimed with great joy, “I’ve got it, Mom!” I wondered what had made him so excited — Was it the bird or something else? Jordan then said, “There are 10,000 sounds I can send you.”

The dream ended, and I woke up immediately. Later that morning as I sat in my spare bedroom/office, a bird landed on the windowsill and I once again heard that unusual chirp. I had a sudden moment of clarity… 10,000 sounds!! I knew in my heart that this little chirp was a message from Jordan; it was his way of connecting with me again. That small little sound gave me peace about my son. What a wonderful gift… a gift that will last my lifetime!

I sometimes like to sit on my front porch and actively listen for my winged messengers. But the special moments come when I am caught unaware by a chirp from a nearby treetop. The sound floods my heart with so much emotion it takes my breath away. It is both heart wrenching and completely comforting at the same time. And I know without a doubt that Jordan and I share a love that transcends time and space; heaven and earth; life and death.